09/23/2026
230KG matching all time PR after 2 years of rehab.
I was told not to post my personal stuff and that it ain't professional, but I dont really care. This is my life. I've been working 7 days a week for as long as I can remember on this business. If I wasn't working, I would be working out.
And to be honest, both were going to s**t for a long ass 5 years. No motivation, no drive, just what I thought was discipline to try to to through the long grueling hours of kitchen and admin work everyday. Maybe if I spent a little more time in the gym, things would get better right? First the left shoulder goes, then the right. My left adductor tears for the first time, then my knees give out because I was a du***ss and didn't rehab correctly and tried to keep pushing. Okay maybe we just need to be humble and start from the ground up. We relearn the tech with low weights, then I herniate my disc on deads. We restart 2 more times, not once, but 2 more times after rehab. Herniate a 2nd time on squats, recover, herniate a 3rd time on bench. Maybe this s**t just ain't for me. Daniel had to carry my ass to the car. Couldn't even stand up and get there by myself.
I've never admitted but for the first time as a grown ass man I cried my s**t out on the drive home. Took me almost 10 minutes to walk upstairs into bed. Business is s**t. Working out is s**t. Had to go on pain killers for 2 weeks just to get by at work AGAIN. Tried to run a 5k since Daniel didn't let me train for 3 weeks, couldn't even get by 2 miles without stopping LOL. I don't think one can understand how useless in life one could feel. Seeing other businesses grow while I'm still making the same mistakes and watching the OG dawgs from warcat 1.0 improve every year and go to nationals while I'm not even allowed to put more than 70kg on the bar. Theres plateauing, and then there's me... REGRESSING.
I was 6 months away from deciding to quitting this business, 3 weeks away from letting daniel know that lifting just isn't for me and it's time to calling it quits. Maybe my family was right... Let's just go back to being a software dev, this industry isn't for me, it's for wolves and I'm just the little sheep.
