07/02/2022
2020 brought in a lot of anxiety for me as I’m sure it did for a lot of you. Particularly after the reports of Asian hate crimes starting, I was scared. I was scared to go out by myself, I was overly friendly because I didn’t want to give anyone a reason to place hate on me.
Fast forward, 2021 was an extremely tough year for me. I left an unhealthy relationship that pushed my anxiety into an all time high. Which forced me to really look into myself. The trauma, patterns, how I respond to certain things and I began to really pay attention to how these things effected all aspects of my life, professional and personal.
Mental health is extremely important to me so I started to see a therapist again. And since then, I’ve been doing a lot of internal work over the last few months. And during that time my therapist helped me identify parts of myself. And over time, I started to understand myself in a way that I had never been able to before. The true vulnerability I am allowing with myself is not an easy journey. Self reflection is hard and frustrating and makes me feel so upset at times. But within that there’s also grace and understanding and showing kindness to myself.
Over the past 6 months, I’ve allowed myself the space to be really true to me without the doubts and questioning of having to please others. And that is exactly what this shoot was for me. I’ve always had guilt doing something for myself. It always made me feel so selfish but now, it feels a bit silly that it was something that was so hard for me to do. So these cakes are a representation of who I was, who I am and who I want to be.
Design & planning: Hedonish Desserts] & & Lindsay Newton]
Photographer: Lindsay Newton]
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Cakes: Hedonish Desserts]
