09/06/2023
For the the last 30 years in the beginning I did my absolute hardest to b good rider, as I got older a good man, good husband ,good friend, I did my best , last few 6 months have been literally the worst in my life n absolutely of my own doing n I am not proud of the dumb s**t thats happened n for the ones that truly know my heart n who i am know i will make it right n i offer my deepest apology but I've learned that people truly believe they never fu**ed up themselves n that's fine with me, for years people have thrown around the word bro n brother like it's nothing n for those years I was a fool n naive enough to think it was real but I learned something today n even tho it stung more than anything in a very long time.. plz going forward don't ever say those 2 words to me ever again plz , for those who really know know me , know the solitude i came from n why i may have believed those words more easily but not more , I rather go down burning alone than to thinking ones r going down with me until the last minute I see them all in the lifeboat together , my apologies for my dumb s**t last few months but plz don't ever say bro or brother around me ever again cause u are not, n those words should not b thrown around so easily , this is Sleep n I won't b down forever that's just not who I am , not in my DNA , for the ones that have shown me real love? U know i will flip it back to u a thousand fold .
