10/25/2024
I am trying to recall my old memories at this moment because my mother is looking for me again.I was born as the sixth child in a family that cherished sons, and was the last of seven daughters, and grew up without much of a presence.Until I immigrated to the US, I was like that, without much of a presence.... I was so weak that I couldn't even dare ask my parents to leave me in Korea, even though I won the grand prize for my painting in 1984 and was able to attend college for free with a scholarship...My weakness was that my mother chose my spouse, and for 24 years I lived a miserable life with a violent and self-centered man, and during those 24 years I helped my mother live her life, helped my siblings live their lives, and served my husband.I thought that if I lived a good life, my children would see me and feel something, so I would live honestly... but instead of copying me, they became like him.He was evil and deceived me, even embezzling my tuition while I was attending college... I knew it, but I just let it be.Just as my God waited for me to return, I waited for them to return on the right path.They lied about many things and I pretended not to know it until now...
I am getting older and I don't have much time, I pray that they will come back to their righteous spirit and find peace in God while I live.Even at this moment, I pray for them to be reborn as children of God... to become a conduit of God...
I don't know if they will hear my prayers, but I know that all I can do is pray for them. God be with them. Amen.
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