22/05/2022
LET ME SHARE THIS WITH YOU!!!
Take Great Care of Your Emotions!!!
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She didn't believe it.
Even though it was true.
What the doctor said to her.
When she was told that her tests had come out positive.
Cancer.
Ovaries.
Five months left to live.
Six at best.
Dazed she was as she sat there in front of him.
At his high rise well furnished office.
In the medical stretch of downtown Toronto.
Stammering she asked.
"But how can that be?"
The genial looking, avuncular acting, greying doctor responded.
"There are many reasons and there is no reason."
"I don't understand."
"Genes, smoking, exposure to carcinogens, radiation, viruses, unprotected s*x, the list goes on. And then for some unknown reason our cells just go crazy and start multiplying randomly, until they kill us."
"I don't smoke, I eat healthy, my vaccinations are up to date, my house is radiation free, I am intentional about avoiding carcinogens. I mean I am the last person this should happen to."
He looked at her for a drawn out moment.
Then sighed, and leaned forward.
Before he continued in a comforting tone.
"How were you doing emotionally before you started feeling ill?"
She hesitated for a while.
Thinking back.
Her lips were pursed.
When they parted, her words were unsure.
"Well... I was... not really... in a good place."
"Why?"
"I guess I've just been... kind of... disillusioned."
"About what?"
"My marriage."
"What about your marriage?"
She swallowed hard.
And her saliva tasted like aluminium buttered with lime.
She grimaced slightly as she answered
"It's failing apart."
"How so?"
"My husband is just impossible. I mean he has changed so much. He has become so mean and uncaring. I no longer get him. He is just so vindictive and so selfish and manipulative, that sometimes I think some alien has possessed his body and now I am married to a complete stranger."
"And do you by any chance still love him?"
"Love?"
"Yes."
"I hate him. Like really and truly despise the sight of him and my blood curdles when I hear his voice. Just thinking of him now is making my skin crawl."
"You still live together?"
"Yes."
"Why?"
"I can't just walk out of the marriage."
"Why?"
"There are the kids to consider. And I really haven't been doing well with work, so finances are all him. It's just complicated."
"Does he know how you feel about him and the marriage?"
"I am tired of complaining, so I just keep numb about the whole thing and let him have his way."
"Meaning you still sleep with him?"
"Sleep like s*x?"
"Yes."
"When he wants to."
"You share the same bedroom?"
"Yes."
"And how does it feel like laying on the same bed with him all through the night."
"You want an honest answer to that?"
"Yes, please."
"I just want to place a pillow over his face and s***f the life out of him. I mean I am filled with so much anger, I literally tremble. And he is so tuned off from me that he doesn't even notice. I just lay there and cry myself to sleep sometimes, but most times, I can't sleep until he leaves for work."
The doctor sighed again.
When he spoke after that, his voice was lower in cadence.
"You said you avoid all kinds of radiation, right?"
"Yes, unless I come into the hospital and have to do xrays, CTs and MRIs."
"What if I told you that right there in your home is a powerful source of radiation."
Her brow furrowed.
Her forehead creased.
Her eyelids went into a squint.
When she spoke, her voice was a whisper.
"In my house?"
"Yes."
"What?"
"Your husband."
"My husband?"
"Yes."
"I don't understand."
"Anything or anyone that can rile us so badly, that we get consumed with so much bile, hatred and negative energy is radioactive. And when we keep exposing ourselves to them and continue experiencing that negative energy, our cells start responding to all that stored hatred and anger. Soon they begin to act out of order. Go wild and all. Before we know it, they grow bigger and bigger, eating us up from within. We sit there stewing in that lava of hate and it feeds the tumours, transforming them from benign to malignant until we wake up one morning and we are diagnosed with cancer and given days, weeks, months and for some lucky ones, a couple of years to live."
Her mouth had dropped slightly open.
Her eyes were wide.
Her shoulders hunched.
Her hands balled into fists.
As she stared hard at him.
He sat there quietly for a moment.
Then when she didn't say anything, even though her silence spoke of her disbelief.
He whispered in remorseful comfort.
"What I just said comes from experience with naturopathy, I have kept my allopathic knowledge aside. We are all energy and because we are, our energy flow mixes with other energies that are constantly flowing around us. Our response to those external energy flow influences how our organs behave. That is why it is so important to guard your emotions and ensure that you do not give power to others to negatively influence you. It is way better to cut your losses and walk out of a marriage or any relationship, circumstance, situation or place that keeps you constantly in emotional turmoil than remain in it, stewing constantly in rancour and becoming embittered in malice. Even unforgiveness and constant fault finding and holding tightly to grievances, even being cantankerous can stimulate our cells to act wonky. So you can be justified in being provoked and right in being wrong, but if you stay continously in a situation or languish in a gram negative start of mind in response to anyone, anything, any place or any action that is outside of you, then you set yourself up for these dangerous auto immune responses. You put your body in a state where its only response to such external attack on it is by attacking itself. When you lay beside a person you hate so much, each night, and even allow them to sleep with you knowing that as you said, it makes your skin crawl, it is just like you sleeping next to an Xray, CT or MRI machine that is constantly emitting radiation. It is suicidal..."
Lagos
Jude Idada
April 26, 2022