01/06/2026
No-one prepares you for the possibility that you might have a full time career in chronic illness. The hard part is that there’s so many aspects to some diseases that the symptoms can take turns and it can feel like you’re never well. It can feel like you’re always trying to find out what a new thing is, in the hope you can fix it. Recently I’ve realised that separating things into being able to live with and not being able to live with, might be the only way to stay positive. The only way to carry on is to keep hope, however little that can be sometimes.
Finding joy in the smaller things is absolutely essential for both physical and mental health. For some that’s sports, music, outdoors, religion, reading… for me it’s always been my work (and animals). My work is my art, the expression of who I am and despite all this I feel so incredibly lucky that two days a week I get to share that. Share it with the most wonderful team who dearly love me and love Ivy wood, and also the most caring, lovely customers. I get to see how this place makes other people happy, who may also be struggling to go about their day or their week.
I am lucky that I have always had light and lots of things to want to live for even in the most painful days when it’s felt easier to not be here.
I share this side of me to explain why I’m not always so reliable or able to open more days a week but also for the many, many people out there who also have this unwanted job. It’s not about being strong, because you don’t have a choice, but it’s about fighting through and being hopeful. Picking through things and being grateful for what makes you smile over feeling like things are unfair (even though you’re allowed to have those days).
Thank you all for being a big part of what keeps me going. Thank you for all the wonderful support and kindness. I hope Ivy Wood gives back to you all xx