09/28/2023
All right I figured it was time to go ahead and tell you guys what is going on some of you guys have asked if I am getting out of chickens if I'm getting out of dogs what's going on so I wanted to answer your questions. for season I am getting out of chickens for a longer season I am getting out of dogs, some of you may know that I have ADHD, PTSD and BPD. And I'm 8 years
Clean from drug addiction. Those of you who have ever battled your mind may understand, but it is exhausting because my mind is a scary place most of the day compound that with ADHD, and it is very easy for me to hyper focus. On one thing to block out what I don't want to deal with to isolate and "control" what is going on. This is the second business that I am "shutting down for family " and the facts is I simply am not a good boss or employee. I don't delegate well I can't prioritize well I put things that are not important first and things that are really important last I get consumed with doing it all today and work till I can't work anymore. this year has given me some time to think; through counseling prayer, time with my family and trying to understand myself I have realized if that I overwork so that I do not have to think but that my family and myself pay that cost that I supplement my actual hopes and dreams with the right here right now, and then become consumed with it I work to ignore issues I work to find happiness I work to find security. going forward we will have some chickens that will be available in the spring. We will have some hatching eggs but not anywhere near what we had this year. 5-7 pens total In the future we may or may not have dogs I have not decided but as of currently, it's a no, I have thought about, my hopes, my dreams I've consulted my family my counselor my pastor and I'm finally trying to talk about me and life and my dreams. one of the common things that I see and that has been consistent for years as I love babies all kinds of babies animal babies human babies but ultimately, I love my own babies as well as I have asked for years to adopt, through my consistent overworking I have put not only mine, but my family's hopes and dreams on pause. My goal is to take this season to work on myself work on my family and pursue our family's dreams not my just my own but ours but as a group not what I say or my husband but all of us not to work so much we can't have fun not to work so much that we can't take a vacation as a family not to be so bombarded with the needs and wants of social media all of excuses of I have to fill in the immidiate thing whatever business is asking for in that moment. my family and I have talked diligently about this and I see now that work isn't everything. Twice I've managed to prioritize the wrong stuff and frankly I can't do that again I'm tired. They are tired. It will require my whole family and myself, to be diligent in the future to not continue to get overwhelmed by the workload and the American dream because to be totally upfront with you maybe the American dream isn't to have everything it's just to have just enough, maybe it's to be content with those who are around you and love you be content with what you have and not gaining so much more that you can't be around the ones that you love. I love all of you guys and I appreciate your support. I hope that you will continue to support us in our smaller, downsized adventure, I hope that you understand and respect our decision to downsize and pray for all of us. We love you and thank you.
