17/01/2024
I had mesh [4cms x 20cms] with hysterectomy and fix re**al prolapse a second time, in June 2004.**
From that day until my mesh was removed 4½ years later, I bled and rotted, and stank to high heaven, without a womb.
My GP said he could see the "bleeding" and smell the rotting inside me, from the other side of his surgery.
Consultant said there was nothing wrong I was imagining it all. For the next 4½ years I was told this.
**[For re**al prolapse through child-bearing, 5 children,and uterine prolapse, after they cut 12cms of my re**um away, in October, 2003 and stitched me inside the sphincter muscle, which also pr*****ed my re**um again...]
It was removed in November 2008.
I lost my re**um, all my large bowel, some small bowel and 10 more surgeries.
The mesh had gone like glass, fragmented and migrated and cut through all of my insides. Woke with a permanent colostomy...
Then had 2 more surgeries in 2009 including stoma refashion.
Had emergency surgery in Jan 2010, for bowel obstruction, and was near death as my stomach was on the verge of rupturing as they opened me up, they also cut a main artery.
In 2015 I was also diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes as I had slowed down so much after so many surgeries.
I had a massive parastomal-hernia and 2 others from 2008 until I had a hernia repair in 2018, without mesh.
This hernia operation and resiting my stoma, from left side to right side, caused 3 new hernias, which kept partially-strangulating. They collapsed my lung in surgery, which promptly contracted Hospital Acquired Pneumonia. I was sent home and 3 days later admitted with severe chest pain, they found 2 blood clots in the descending chamber of my Aorta.
1 x blood clot was 7mm and other 20mm [2cms!]
This year, 2023, in March, I had to endure a complete abdominal wall reconstruction, with a , the size of my entire abdomen.
Since the last surgery, I've been in constant pain, I keep being sick, or just wretching for hours on end.
They damaged my bladder, so everytime I wretch, I wet myself....
I have been SO depressed since I rarely get out of bed and only leave my room for medical appointments.
Also, due to epidural pain relief, the nerves in my leg have been damaged and since 2019 my left leg has shrunk 7cms, so my leg is 45° angle to my foot/ankle.
I have to use crutches and a wheelchair. I have calcific tentonitis in both shoulders. Making walking a nightmare. The balls of my feet get so painful....
I have my 4th stoma now, which is the size of a 5p piece and as I have so few teeth and have to eat with my front teeth, my food doesn't get digested. It is hard for waste to squeeze through my stoma.
On top of that, surgery has given me horrific acid reflux and aspiration.
I take Esomeprazole and have done 15 years.
My small bowel, what is left, doesn't work at all.
I have IBS and colitis.
I have had to take 4x Bisacodal/Ducolax, everyday and have done for 20 years.
I have massive lack of nutrients as it all washes through me.
I have to keep stools watery.
I have no micro-bione to speak of.
I get many utis every year. I cant sleep and to top it all off, I am unable to tolerate most pain relief.
I can't have morphine, codeine etc.
I am prescribed Pethidine bit I am too scared to take it, as it causes blockages and I them have to take even more than the maximum amount of laxatives, plus, our chemists have been unable to access any Pethidine for me since before my last surgery in March.
NHS admitted in 2012, after 4 years, negligence and "sub standard surgery" as they "made it up on the day" in 2004, something they aren't allowed to do.
I had a 14 year court case, my solicitor was £409ph.
My barrister had asked for £3.3 million compensation, but the NHS sited an 'unsuccessful' DLA claim in the 1990's, as a reason to give me less than a 10th of that.
I had been r***d in 1996, and as a consequence contracted Hepatitis C and became pregnant,
Cont'd....
Yes!
😣💨💨💨
But they used the symptoms of Hepatitis C, Anxiety, fatigue, depression, non existent immune system etc to say I would've needed care anyway, and would be depressed and anxious in any case, except that I went through an 11 month, 48 weeks of Interferon & Ribavirin treatment, like chemo, lost hair etc, in 2006/2007 and cleared the Hep C.
The settlement paid some debts.
Mesh meant that my 5 children and 5 step children had to endure me crying and screaming in pain for 20 years. Day & night.
Somehow, all 5 of mine, got to uni and 4 have graduated, one with 1st class Honours, All while bringing them up on Disability Benefits.
[Don't hear about that on Benefits Street]
3 of my step children went to uni, 2 graduated, 1 with 1st class Honours.
[We had them at holiday times]
Now they've all gone, bar one, who will be off soon enough.
I wake up so disappointed that I'm still alive and last week my husband rescued me from the large rope I had around my neck on our stairs.
Colo-re**al surgeon is concerned about my mental health, but says I will have to live with the pain [adhesions] and wretching and vomiting.....as they don't want to operate any more, except emergencies.
I was 33 when I was r***d, 42 when I had hysterectomy and 46 when I had mesh, re**um and all large bowel, removed.
I'm 61 and death cannot come a day too soon.
I was so capable, so busy, so cheerful, so dependable, so resilient...
Now....
I'm just waiting to die.......
I gave evidence to the Cumberledge review, and evidence to the House of Lords, even to have the Review in the 1st place.
I finally have admitted defeat...
Nothing can help me except my faith in the God of Lo♡e who IS Lo♡e.
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